Friend,
This is not good. At all.
However, this is not the worst-case scenario. It’s a worse-case scenario.
Everything feels overwhelming today. Your mind is spinning. Your heart is sinking. And you oscillate between anger, disgust, dismay, and dread.
And probably more than anything, I think you are scared. It’s so easy to let our fear decide our thoughts and behaviors. Fear decides our thoughts and behaviors if we are not intentional about them.
Fear does a few things in our minds. Fear tells us that pain is imminent and it’s all up to you to either defeat it (fight) or avoid it (flight). Think about a basketball game, when the game suddenly turns in the 4th quarter and the team is down by 7 with two minutes to play. There is often at least one player who wants nothing to do with the ball, and then there is often a player who tries to hit the impossible 7-point shot.
On the basketball court, you need someone who can make the right decision calmly. There is an urgency, but not an emergency.
You find yourself with an urgency, but not an emergency. So, take a deep breath. You can’t fix it. You can’t rewind time. What is the next right thing you can do? What is the most faithful thing you can do?
Don’t know what to do? That’s a good thing. Because now you can pause, pray, and seek what to do. Fear can also give you a false certainty. “Your only option is to do _______.” Faith helps you to see the possibilities that were always there.
It’s a worse-case scenario, but it’s not the end, and you might find one day in the future that it was actually the beginning.
Love,
Aaron